X Factor winner James Arthur has told how he thought about killing himself after struggling with the pressure of winning the talent show.
The singer, who said he turned to religion to get him through tough times, was rushed to hospital in New York after having a panic attack when he got off a plane - and things got worse when he returned to the UK.
He told the Daily Mirror: "One morning after I got back from New York I wanted to fall flat on my face and never wake up.
"Everybody wanted something from me and with my family I've never been the person they look up to. Then I felt like I had to sort everything out for everyone. I thought about killing myself but I would never do it because my little sister looks up to me as an example."
The 25-year-old said sudden fame and criticism in the media left him "freaking" out and he started "praying for God to help me and liberate me from stress".
He is currently locked in a battle for number one with New Zealand teenager Lorde, whose debut, Royals, has been a hit around the world.
It was out-selling Arthur's You're Nobody Til Somebody Loves You by around 7,000 copies according to mid-week sales figures from the Official Charts Company.
James's first single - a cover of Shontelle's Impossible - went straight in at Number 1 last year following his X Factor win and was the fastest-selling single of 2012, selling nearly 490,000 copies in its first week.