Cheska reveals depression struggle
Made In Chelsea star Cheska Hull has revealed her struggle with depression following the suicide of her father and the collapse of a relationship with a long-term boyfriend.
The reality TV personality, who now works as an ambassador for mental health charity Mind, said counselling has helped her cope with her problems.
She told Hello! magazine: "I can see now that my depression was building up for some time, but I buried it and buried it and tried so hard to put on a front because the alternative was to deal with intensely painful things that I had such confused feelings about."
Talking about the death of her father Robin, who hanged himself in Hong Kong in 2011, she said: "I knew he wasn't in a positive place, although never how bad it had got.
"But there's always that nagging regret of, 'What if I'd got round to returning that last missed call?'."
She said: "My father's death is something that will affect me forever, but I'm more at peace with it, and him, and I know now that I wasn't crazy or stupid for feeling the way I felt. I just should have got help a lot sooner."
The star also said she was devastated when her boyfriend of two-and-a-half years, a banker called Mike, ended their relationship.
She said: "I was heartbroken, bereft, a mess.
"I hadn't seen it coming, although in retrospect, I can see he and I were not on the same page.
"I'd got to the stage where I'd wanted us to move in together and for things to start moving forwards. I was completely in love with him.
"My thoughts were moving towards marriage, children, which, on reflection, he was always reticent to discuss."
:: Read the full interview in Hello! magazine, out now.