KStew: Early stardom made me anxious
Kristen Stewart feels “smarter and calmer” with age.
The 25-year-old became the focus of everyone’s attention thanks to her role in The Twilight films and her subsequent relationship with co-star Robert Pattinson. The couple broke up after pictures emerged of her embracing married director Rupert Sanders, and the whole experience left Kristen dumbfounded.
“Speaking very candidly, it was a really traumatic period in my early 20s that kick-started something in me that was a bit more... feral,” she told the US edition of Marie Claire. “Between ages 15 and 20, it was really intense. I was constantly anxious. I was kind of a control freak. If I didn't know how something was going to turn out, I would make myself ill, or just be locked up or inhibited in a way that was really debilitating."
Thankfully Kristen has been able to break that cycle of behaviour and embrace who she is. This has been helped by the fact she’s chosen a variety of roles that challenge her, including in movies Still Alice and Clouds of Sils Maria. Her work on the latter led to her becoming the first American actress to receive the best supporting actress gong at the Cesar Awards. This has all helped the star feel more confident and comfortable in her own skin.
“I'm really proud that I am able to move forward and not fall into every mental crater. That's a new thing for me,” she continued. “Age has made me smarter and calmer. And it is f**king awesome.”
This has meant Kristen no longer feels the need to apologise for her demeanour or how she comes across in interviews.
“Lately, I've been doing less of the, 'I'm sooooo sorry.' And more of the 'No. F**k. Jesus,'” she revealed.
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