Tulisa: I wanted Fazer to be first
Published 25/09/2012 | 10:32
Tulisa Contostavlos has revealed that she wished ex-boyfriend Fazer was her first lover.
Instead, the X Factor judge - who was in an on-off relationship with her N-Dubz bandmate, whose real name is Richard Rawson - admitted that she lost her virginity when she was 14 to a 17-year-old called Jono.
In her biography Honest, My Story So Far, which is serialised in The Sun, she recalled: "All the time I was on and off with Fazer, he really wanted us to have sex but he was a gentleman about it. And now I'd given myself away to someone else.
"I very much regret this now, and I wish that Fazer had been my first, but it wasn't to be," she added.
Tulisa and Fazer, who dated throughout the years but kept their romance a secret, finally split earlier this year.
The 24-year-old singer regrets losing her virginity so young but said she was looking for a "fairytale romance".
"I had too many boys too soon. I regret losing my innocence so early. I wore my heart on my sleeve and I was ready to give my all if I thought I was going to get love in return," she revealed.
"My overwhelming craving to be loved led me into some very bad relationships. I hoped if I slept with a guy he would look after me and make me feel loved, and I wanted to be looked after and loved more than anything."