I was abused as a child and now I feel suicidal
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As a child I was abused by a relative and as I couldn’t do anything about it, I grew up angry, inhibited and hurt.
I’ve never really discussed what happened with anyone and I can’t form relationships, so I have very few friends.
Sometimes I feel suicidal, but then I think my abuser would have won and I never want to let him forget what he did.
I know I need help but I don’t know who to trust as I don’t want him to find out I have spoken to anyone. MC
FIONA SAYS: TALK TO CHARITY HELPLINE
Sadly there are far too many people in the world like you who have been abused and hurt but who don’t know where to turn.
As a child you should be able to feel safe with your adult relatives, so when that trust is broken by abuse, it is hard for you to know who you can trust.
You do have a few friends and, were you able to talk to them, I am sure you would find they would be shocked but very supportive.
It might be hard to make that first move, though, so I suggest you look at the website napac.org.uk — the National Association for People Abused in Childhood. The helpline can be contacted on, tel: 0800 085 3330 or 0808 801 0331 and you should find you are able to talk about your experiences.
Finally, if you do feel suicidal — or even if you just need to talk anonymously — don’t forget the Samaritans, tel: 08457 90 90 90.