I fought eating disorder, says Lily
Singer Lily Allen has admitted that she has fought an eating disorder, getting sick after meals at the peak of her fame.
The 25-year-old also talks about losing her unborn baby last year in a Channel 4 documentary to be broadcast next week about the launch of the star's new career as clothes shop owner with her sister Sarah Owen.
She said: "There was a point last summer where I had an eating disorder. I used to vomit after meals. It is not something I am proud of. But I tell you what, a lot of people used to come up to me and tell me how great I looked and I was on the cover of every magazine with them saying 'Lily is looking amazing - look how much weight she has lost'."
She went on: "I thought I looked good and it was great to try on clothes and walk out of the shop feeling a million dollars. When you have been a victim of people saying the complete opposite, you want more of it.
"But I wasn't happy, I really wasn't. I would like to be the skinniest, mini-est person in the world, but I know I can't do that without being unhappy. I like my food."
Allen lost most weight in 2009 during the launch of her second album It's Not Me, It's You, when she put her new shape down to cutting out junk food.
The documentary was filmed before Allen suffered her second miscarriage while six months pregnant last November but the film crew went back to continue filming her story after the loss of her baby. She told the programme: "It was a really long battle - and I think that kind of thing changes a person."
The star, who is said to be planning to marry boyfriend Sam Cooper, ended her recording career despite enjoying huge success. She said of her decision: "People who are famous and successful and live in this mad world tend to die really early, or kill themselves, or die in a drugs overdose. I'd rather not so I figure I will go and eat.
"My idea of hell would be doing this in 25 years' time. I don't want to be like Madonna - look at her, she's mental. No offence but that is not what drives me. I want to get married and have kids and make sandwiches cutting the crusts off."
Lily Allen: From Riches To Rags begins next Tuesday at 10pm on Channel 4.