The terrible, shocking death of Wales manager Gary Speed has left thousands of us reeling.
The suicide of a 42-year-old man who seemed to have it all is not just immensely sad, it is unsettling.
As his old pal Robbie Savage said, he had a beautiful wife, two lovely sons, a very proud mum and dad, and a career on the up and up, with his status among Welsh football fans moving into heroic territory.
So I understand the growing clamour to find out why Speed took his own life, spurred by the announcement of the inquest into his suicide this week.
It's an instinct I, as a curious and concerned human being, share.
But if the 'explanation' is something Speed wanted kept secret - and it's possible that the threat of its being publicly uncovered was what provoked his drastic, horrifying action - I hope for his and his family's sake that it remains a mystery forever.