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Why I chose to support my son when he turned down treatment for a deadly tumour

Bangor woman Joyce Craig pays tribute to her late son's courageous decision not to have treatment for a tumour. Now, she tells Stephanie Bell how she wants to help others through their cancer journey

Published 25/01/2016

Looking forward: Joyce Craig with her Mum of the Year Award
Looking forward: Joyce Craig with her Mum of the Year Award
Tragic loss: Joyce Craig with her late son Michael
Award winner: Joyce with her son Christopher
Her disabled daughter Nicola who died four years ago
Top prize: Colette Wilson of Irwin’s Bakery who presented Joyce with her award
Top award: Belfast Telegraph Editor Gail Walker (right) with The OUTLET’s marketing manager Siobhan McKeown, ready to hand the trophy to this year’s recipient

As she prepares to mark the first anniversary of her son Michael's death next Tuesday, Belfast Telegraph Mum of the Year 2015 Joyce Craig has revealed plans to create what will be a lasting tribute to his bravery.

Michael's decision to refuse treatment when diagnosed with an advanced, inoperable and incurable brain tumour in August 2014 was one which bought both him and his mum quality time together.

Although initially shocked that her son refused treatment, Joyce stood by him. And it was only when she lost him five months later that she realised his decision had been the right one.

Now, in the hope of helping others who face the same difficult decisions, Joyce is launching a website as a tribute to her son, to be called Michael's Choice.

Michael was just 25 when he died last February. His illness had been diagnosed the previous August, just as he was putting plans in place to start a new life in Australia where the family had lived for two years when he was a child.

Joyce (58) also lost a daughter, Nicola, who was disabled, four years ago, aged 26. The Bangor mum has a 23-year-old son Christopher who has cerebral palsy and requires round-the-clock care.

As we call for entries for the 2016 Woman of the Year Awards, Joyce, who won our Mum of the Year title last year, says she can look back with happiness to those final precious months with Michael - thanks to the choice he made not to have treatment.

"When people are diagnosed with cancer, they go on what I call 'the cancer conveyor belt'. There is no time to think and you are put straight onto that conveyor belt of surgery and treatment and off you go," she says. "When you get a cancer diagnosis, it is the loneliest place to be - it was certainly the loneliest I have ever felt.

"You go out of that hospital room and there's nothing and no one there." The tireless mum adds: "I hope the website will bring people together to talk to each other and ask questions about cancer.

"We didn't go down the treatment route, although I would like to know more about that. I would also like to show people what it is like if you choose not to.

"I know Michael didn't suffer - which was an eye opener for me, because most people suffer and would tell you that the end is very unpleasant."

Joyce says she wants to share her memories of Michael's journey to help inform others that there is another option besides treatment following a cancer diagnosis.

"Initially there was great hope when Michael was told that his tumour was slow growing and low grade," she recalls.

But 10 days later, after a biopsy, Michael and his mum were stunned and shattered to be told that, tragically, it was a high grade, inoperable and incurable tumour.

Michael was offered a combination of chemotherapy and radiotherapy which he was told would not save him, but might buy him some time.

Joyce recalls a nurse telling her that Michael was fortunate to be offered treatment as it wasn't available to everyone. She was told the fact Michael was young and fit were the reasons he qualified.

She was naturally relieved to be told her son could be treated, but Michael wanted to think about his options before deciding to have treatment.

Although medical staff were shocked when he turned the treatment down, his mother understood why her son had made his choice. From that moment until she lost him five months later, Joyce stayed by his side and made the most of every moment.

Joyce says: "Michael made me think outside the box and I'm grateful for that. He said to me: 'Mum I am going to lose my hair, will probably end up in a wheelchair and maybe eventually lose my mind and for what? They are not going to save me'.

"Michael made it clear he wanted to spend his last Christmas with me and from that moment he took me on a journey with him.

"The more I listened to him, the more I thought 'this young man knows exactly what is going on'. I told him I would do it with him and hold his hand until I couldn't hold it any longer."

Joyce says being by her son's side reinforced her respect for his decision. "In those months I certainly had my eyes opened. One chemo tablet that doctos wanted him to take was so toxic the nurse giving it to him had to wear gloves," she adds.

"That horrified Michael and I. In the end, he didn't even need morphine and he passed peacefully.

"The few months we had together were very special and we played cards together and watched TV.

"When he was well enough we went out for lunch or Michael went out with his friends."

Joyce told of a particularly poignant moment when Michael was admitted to Marie Curie Hospice in late November.

They had been enjoying a game of cards together as usual when Michael suddenly collapsed in bed.

Doctors and nurses rushed in and told a horrified Joyce that her son was dying. Michael went quiet and all the indications were that he had passed away.

In what was a miraculous moment, Joyce recalls: "I just thought 'no, I need him to go happier than this' and I started talking to him and telling him how much I had loved him from the day he was born.

"I said I had never been so proud of him and his strength, and when they said he had gone I leaned over and whispered in his ear 'please don't leave me yet' and his head moved and his eyes, too.

"The doctor said she didn't understand what had happened and she had never seen anything like it before.

"He was incredible and so brave. He gave me the most pleasant way of saying goodbye, because he didn't suffer."

Michael got his wish to spend Christmas with his mum and they had a lovely day with family in the hospice.

Now, as the first anniversary of his death approaches, Joyce says the first year without her son has been a year of huge change. She says she has done things she hadn't planned and would never have dreamt of doing - and she believes that Michael has been there with her throughout it all.

Before he died, Joyce promised Michael she would fly to Australia and mark his 26th birthday on the spot where he had planned to start a new life, which she now affectionately refers to as "Michael's Island".

The trip brought more comfort than she could ever have hoped for, as she met people Michael had been friendly with on Facebook.

While there, she also heard their stories of how he had made a positive impact on their lives.

Since losing her son, Joyce moved to a new house in Donaghadee in December because she couldn't bear to be at home without him.

"I've had the most amazing year and I've done things I would never have expect to and they were happy things," she says.

"I believe he is still around and things happen which I can't explain - I call them Michael Moments."

One of these special moments for Joyce was winning the Belfast Telegraph Mum of the Year Award last year.

On her first Mother's Day without Michael, which she had been dreading, Joyce was shocked to be told that she had been nominated for our award.

It was a special moment which she believes Michael had a hand in - to help her get through the tough first month of March without him.

"It just lifted my heart and was so out of the blue and totally unexpected," she says.

"The night of the awards I felt happiness and I wasn't expecting to feel happiness again so soon afar losing Michael."

Joyce has decided that she doesn't want to mark the death of Michael's anniversary every year and, while she has made plans for his first anniversary next week, she says it will be the first and last time.

"I have put together a collage of pictures of his life to post on my Facebook page and leave at the tree I planted for him and my daughter in Clandeboye Cemetery," she says.

"I have planned to go away with a friend that day.

"I had 25 wonderful years with him and I don't want to regret the years we didn't have, but instead celebrate the time we did have. After this year I plan to celebrate his birthday and not the day I lost him."

As well as the website, Michael's Choice, which she hopes to launch in March, Joyce has also recently set up a Just Giving page in her son's memory to raise funds for Marie Curie.

She also plans to set up a charity in his memory to support research into the causes of brain tumours.

"I want to raise funds to research the cause - not the cure - of brain cancer, which is the biggest cancer killer in under-40s ,and I would love to help discover what is causing it," she says.

"Hopefully the website will be positive and uplifting. Michael made a choice which, up until he left me, allowed his life to be as positive as it could be.

"It is that positivity I hope to celebrate and hopefully inspire others, too."

You can support Joyce's appeal at https://www.justgiving.com/MichaelsChoice

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