Belfast Telegraph

Green: I regret last words to dad

Professor Green has revealed his final words to his suicidal father were, "I hate you."

The 31-year-old rapper, whose real name is Stephen Manderson, lost his dad Peter in 2008 after he committed suicide.

"As a child, it was complicated. He was always in and out of my life," the singer told BBC's Lifeline appeal programme.

"At 18 we stopped talking and after five years, I decided to reach out to try and arrange a meeting. Unfortunately, we ended up arguing and the last words I said to him were, 'I hate you'."

Pro Green continued: "The terrible thing is, I never got to see him again because a few months later, he killed himself. The moment I found out my dad had taken his own life is still as clear today as the moment it happened. I kept wondering why no one had seen it coming.

"It's been six years and the weird thing about grieving is it never stops," he added. "I still don't know what was going through my dad's head when he killed himself and I never got the chance to say a proper goodbye or tell him that I love him. I wish there was someone he felt he could have confided in or reached out to."

The musician, who is married to former Made In Chelsea star Millie Mackintosh, is a supporter of the Campaign Against Living Miserably, CALM, a charity which fights to prevent male suicide.

"Suicide is now the biggest killer in men aged between 20 and 45 in the UK, bigger than heart disease, road accidents and murder," he said.

He added: "There have been times I have suffered from anxiety and depression, and it can affect anyone at any time."


From Belfast Telegraph