Tulisa: I pretended I was fine
Tulisa Contostavlos said she never let herself believe she was "finished forever" and "pretended I was fine" to survive the drugs allegations that threatened to destroy her career.
The former N-Dubz singer's trial for allegedly brokering a cocaine deal collapsed earlier this year after the judge said there were "strong grounds" to believe tabloid journalist Mazher Mahmood lied in the witness box.
Despite the stress, Tulisa did not want to see a counsellor and "ignored the problem", she said in an interview with the Sunday Mirror magazine Notebook.
She said: "I pretended I was fine. If I'd opened up to a counsellor, then the thought becomes real. I'd have awful moments but I was self-counselling every night in the mirror."
Tulisa is now making a comeback with a new single entitled Living Without You.
She told the magazine: "If I'd let myself believe I was finished forever, then I would have been. I just thought I will come back, bigger and better."
The former X Factor judge also voiced her opinion about celebrities who have had private photos leaked, calling it "f*****g unfair". In 2012, she accused an ex-boyfriend of betraying her after a sex tape showing the pair in ''an intimate moment'' appeared online .
She said: "Some people leak them themselves but I was someone who was really affected by it. Perhaps I'm just over-sensitive. Now if I had a boyfriend and wanted to send a kinky picture, I'd think twice. Trust me, there is nothing detrimental on my phone at all."
She singled out celebrities Rochelle Humes, Niall Horan and Rylan Clark for supporting her despite the bad press.
Addressing criticism of the cosmetic work she has had to her face, Tulisa said: "I'd always wanted my lips done, but never did because of the fear of what people would think.
"And now I'm so comfortable in my own skin, I just went for it. I never intended to get fillers in my cheeks, but when it was mentioned to me I thought I'd give it a whirl."
She admitted that initially "there was too much water retention in my face" but said she was happy with the look now.
"I wanted to see perkier lips and collagen and that's my prerogative. If you don't like the look of my face, don't look at me! I'm the one who has to live with it," she said.