On the ice, Belfast Giants hero Kevin Raine allows himself to be a glutton for punishment.
A no-nonsense defenceman, the Ontario native rules his own end of the ice. Every night he would put his body on the line, blocking shots, hitting opponents and shipping plenty of hits of his own in pursuit of a win.
He's been a big part of the Giants' recent success. In his three years with the team, Raine has helped the Giants win an Elite League title and two Challenge Cups, and last season led them into Europe, memorably dropping gloves with Czech international Jan Ordos in their opening Champions League game against Bili Tygri Liberec.
Last season, he was named MVP in the Giants' Covid-19 shortened season, a reflection of how important he is to Adam Keefe's side.
So, on the ice, everything seems great. But off the ice, there have been tough days.
"My experience in the game has created a perfectionist in me," explains Raine when I catch up with him over Zoom from his home in Dryden, Ontario.
Sports people are placed on pedestals due to their lavish lifestyles and enviable occupations, but they are just as susceptible to suffering as anyone else. In Raine's case, his perfectionism led to issues that he took away from the rink and into his personal life. When he had a bad training session or a bad game, it would haunt him.
"The way I project my perfectionism all over the place is sometimes beneficial but in other ways is not beneficial at all," acknowledges the 27-year-old.
"My job up until now as a hockey player was to be the best that I can be, so I would bring a perfectionist attitude to my training or to how I prepare.
"When you are trying to be so upright and perfect in your game that you start applying that to your daily life and the things around you, it's a really good way to drive yourself nuts and feel like you're up against a lot.
"As a sports person I'm expected to perform, and I perform. But if I'm in a relationship, now I'm trying to be perfect all the time and I'll create a list of expectations that I'm placing on myself. And you imagine that in other situations, and I was putting so much pressure on myself in all aspects of my life.
"I was trying to act like a professional athlete everywhere, and it doesn't serve a person."
Eventually it all came to a head after his plans to set roots in Belfast by setting up his own company, Personal Best Hockey, a year ago were ruined by the pandemic and, after a conversation with a friend, Raine made the decision to seek out professional help.
"Over a year ago I launched Personal Best, which would have been a grassroots hockey programme with the idea that whether you're an amateur who's never played or a pro who's looking to get better, you can take those next steps," says Raine.
"Apply that beyond hockey and it's still the same message. Are you thriving and want to excel or are you in the dumps and just want to get up? Well, that's exclusive to you and where you're at in your development.
"Inspired by that, I started to actively take care of myself, where I kind of realised I wasn't liking this, this and this about myself and I want to take care of these things.
"In a discussion with a friend, just by how openly he spoke about those issues, there was something in the way he spoke that was different to when you usually hear about those messages of 'seek help from a friend'.
"Then it was very shortly after that where I went to him and asked who he worked through that stuff with. And that person is now my therapist."
That, in turn, has driven his desire to get more involved in the discussion around mental health beyond just his own battle. Initially, he just wanted to raise money for mental health awareness but, conscious he could do more and worried where the money might go, Raine started to talk publicly instead.
His first YouTube video was just between himself and his mum, Michelle, as they travelled in the car together. Then came a chat with former Giants team-mate Jordan Smotherman. And from there it has flourished.
A chat with fellow professional ice hockey player Derek Mathers racked up 1,400 views online, and Raine has branched out beyond his sporting links too. In recent episodes he's spoken to a director of a local Ontario family mental well-being charity as well as counsellors and support workers, trying to raise awareness about mental health issues.
"We're 10 episodes into this thing and I don't know how long I'm going to keep it going, but it's led to some amazing conversations and some amazing insight," smiles Raine.
"The more and more videos go out, the more people that say to me they appreciate what I'm doing because it helped them or helped someone they knew. The conversations it's led me into have made me realise that if it's not you, then it's someone very close to you.
"The messages are heavy and they're real. But people say to me they needed it that day and it's helping them, and they ask me to keep going with it.
"The more diverse those conversations can get, the better, because it shouldn't be an off-limits conversation, you should be able to lean on your supports and encouraged to do so.
"The big reason I've gone the way I have in these videos, I think it's about awareness and having a discussion. The people who are struggling aren't just not searching for help, they're hiding it from their own families.
"How much are we as sons, daughters, brothers, sisters making it aware to the people around us that we have compassion and we are available to help?"
Looking forward, Raine wants to act more on his own words. He acknowledges that right now he is limited in scope because he has no mental health qualifications and is getting the reach he has largely because of his status within his sport, but that, he hopes, is something that will change over the coming years.
"I want to do a mental health certification, and then that kind of rounds out what could be a more legitimate version of what I'm doing. Because right now I'm just a man talking and people are listening. But the more certifications you can get, the more active you can get in certain fields," he reveals.
"I'm very fortunate to have played hockey and, up until this point, had eyes on me. I bring this to my Instagram and my following and they want to see that based on what I have done.
"If I want to reach people beyond playing hockey - and I want to get to a point where I don't have to say I played professional hockey to get people to listen - then I need to qualify up."
That will come once Raine hangs up the skates and, while his interest was piqued by potentially playing in next month's EIHL Series, he has ruled out returning to the ice before the 2021-22 season due to the work he's doing at home.
Needing a job for the year, a chance meeting with a friend in a supermarket saw him take up a role in a school in Dryden doing applied behavioural analysis with a special needs child, and Raine says he's committed to seeing through the academic year with him.
"I've had to put into perspective what a good day looks like. It's been a brand new experience. I'm learning a lot," says Raine.
"The way we prime and shape how to go forward with the day will hopefully lead to (the child's) long-term success. I'm learning a lot about behaviour and what drives a person.
"There are days where I have literally broken down and cried at work. It's tough going. Sometimes we're trying things that aren't working, and then other things in your mind start to go.
"I'm lucky to have a lot of supports around me where, when I get talking, everything else comes to the surface. My boss, the principal at the school, is always open to having a conversation and he's been an amazing support.
"But it's been a really good experience. A lot of really good days, a lot of really tough days."
Just like the battle with mental health. But Raine is committed to seeing both through and, one conversation at a time, he's making a real difference.