X FACTOR starlet Janet Devlin has bravely spoken about a terrifying sexual assault when she was just an innocent teenager.
Janet made it to the quarter-finals on the live show of the hit series in 2011, when Little Mix were crowned the winners.
But the singer from Gortin, Co Tyrone, was hiding a secret battle with booze, depression, self-harming and suicidal thoughts when she was on TV.
And to make matters worse, she was also living with the mental scars of being subjected to a horrific incident when a boy forced himself on her at a house party.
Janet was just 16 when she first appeared on the reality singing contest - but a year earlier she suffered the ordeal which she said had "a huge impact on me".
Now 25, Janet said: "After a while, I was ready to go home but my friend wanted to stay a little longer, so I said I'd go and lie down upstairs until she was ready to leave together.
"As I was trying to get to sleep, a boy from the party came in the room and got into the bed next to me, claiming to be tired, too.
"Though I was uncomfortable with the situation, I didn't want to make a fuss. I was drunk and tired. I tried to get to sleep and assumed he had, too.
"Out of nowhere I could feel his hand slide up my dress and his palm come to rest on my upper thigh. I assumed that he'd move it as soon as he moved position again, and that it was just a sleep reflex. It wasn't. It was a test to see if I was sleeping. As I didn't move when he did this, he proceeded to move his hand inside my knickers.
"I froze. As his fingers continued to wander I snapped out of it and mustered up the courage to say 'No!' in a firm whisper. I grabbed his hand and shoved it away. I made sure that he knew I didn't want that. Not that he'd bothered to ask anyway.
"With a monosyllabic mumble, he shuffled and went still again. I lay there, in complete shock of what had just happened."
But despite telling the boy 'no', Janet said her attacker targeted her again minutes later in the bedroom.
In her new autobiography, My Confessional, she candidly revealed: "A short while later, the silence was broken again by the same stirring. This time there was no test or warning.
"His fingers went straight to the inside of my underwear again. I froze for the second time and he got even further than he had done before.
"It was as if I'd mustered up all my courage in my initial outburst. I willed for my body to move but it wouldn't. It felt as though my every limb was weighed down by concrete. 'Why is he doing this?', 'Why won't he stop?' and 'Why won't you f***ing move, Janet?' were the questions screaming inside my head. After a few minutes - and it was minutes - I got so mad at myself that I managed to grab his hand again and remove it from inside me.
"I could feel his body tense with shock, as though he was surprised I was awake. 'I said no!' I whispered loudly as I shoved myself off the bed and left the room.
"I went straight to the bathroom and slid down against the closed door. There I sat, on the warm tiles, staring at my feet. Battling to string a coherent thought together through the remaining daze of booze. Wishing with all my might that boy hadn't done what he just did. Wishing that I couldn't feel the ghost of his fingertips on my skin."
Janet left the party without telling anyone what had happened.
"I did finally tell my best friend a few days later. She was as shocked as I was. I told my counsellor, too. When they asked what I wanted to do about the situation, I had no answer. I didn't know.
"I didn't want to cause a fuss over something that had happened while this boy was drunk. Though I must admit, it stung me to my core to think that there was no acknowledgement of what he had done.
"That was my own fault. I allowed that to happen by not wanting to make that moment all about me. To this day, I still think about what I should have said to him - just so he knew that what he did was not right."
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